Loss

It has taken me a few days to write this. I have wanted to since about Thursday when everything happened. I went to bed on Wednesday night at around 9:30pm because I had class on Thursday and had to be up at 6am. Chad came to bed around midnight or so because he had to be up with Peyton at 6am with me. (usually he stays up all night due to working 3rd shift). His phone started ringing at about 3am and I rolled over and hit him and told him to get it. He answered and I didn't hear anything. Chad asked the person if they were still there and that's when I heard him. It was Chad's best friend A (I won't put his whole name on here) and he was bawling his eyes out and said that his baby had just died. Chad and I shot up in bed. Chad asked him what happened and I remember hearing every word SO clearly even though I was not on the phone. He said that they were sleeping together and he rolled over on him. We both started crying immediatly because we know what a wonderful father this guy is and we had NO IDEA what to say to that. Chad asked him where he was and if he wanted him to come to him. A said he was in South Bend at the hospital. So Chad couldn't really go. (of course if he said come now, he would have). So A got off the phone with Chad and we just sat there, crying in silence, frozen. It was really hard to go back to sleep after that. And when I finally did fall asleep, I had HORRIBLE dreams. We woke up at 6am and went through the motions of the day. Of course the day was HORRIBLE for me. I left for school and forgot to leave the carseat for Chad in case A needed him. I left my wallet at home, and didn't take Chad's debit card in case I needed anything. I got to school and realized that my gas tank was almost on E and I had NO money with me. (a friend brought me $20 though thank god!!) Then I went into my APHY class and failed the quiz. (I actually dropped this class because I just can NOT do an 8 week class in that class!) By the time I got home I was exhausted, mentally, and physically. Chad was still a wreck when I got home so that was another thing. Then he got another call from A. Apparently when he had called in the morning,, the dr's told them that if they took the breathing tube out, the baby would die. A lost it and called Chad. But when they took it out, he was still breathing on his own. But they had done tests and they showed that he was brain dead. They were still running tests when Chad got that 2nd call so we had hope that maybe things would be ok. But A sent a text to Chad a few hours later and he had passed then. Chad loves this guy like a brother and feels like he should be doing something for him but I mean, what can you do in a situation like this?!? We're not sure on arrangements still. I've been looking for an obituary but they have not posted one yet. I texted E (As fiance) to let her know I was here for her and stuff like that but I have not heard from her yet. I can't even imagine what they're going through. I have NO idea how I would react to something like that! I don't know what I can say to either of them. I mean you can't say it'll be ok, because they lost one of their children. I would just die if something like that would happen to one of my girls! I know this has rambled on, and on, but I just needed to get it out. So in closing, I will say R.I.P baby Elijah (he was only 6-8 weeks old btw). You were loved SO much by SO MANY people and we will miss you forever!!

Bri