Peyton's 2nd Birthday

Wow. I cannot believe my baby is 2 years old already!! It seems like just yesterday, I was in L&D having my little girl. She has been such a blessing in our lives. She DEFINATLY makes our lives more interesting. She is hilarious and full of spunk. I have a feeling she will be a handful for the rest of our lives haha. She's amazing! We had to have her birthday party a little late because of money issues, but we celebrated her life on the 20th of Feb. We had it at the bowling alley. She had a blast and, as usual, got spoiled. I'm going to post a bunch of pictures from her Birthday party and from the day before her birthday when we took her to Chuck-E-Cheese. She had fun then too!!

 Me, Peyton, Raelynn, and Sondra

 Peyton bowling with her Aunt Kaitlyn

 Throwing the ball

 She LOVES Dora!

 Ooohh fire lol

 She loved us singing to her:-)

 She blew it out all by herself!

 Opening presents

 After she opened this present,

she didn't want to

open any more lol

 At Chuck-E-Cheese

 Having fun!

 NEVER get a cake from them.

They are disgusting!

 But SHE loved it!

 See?

 Opening presents on her Birthday

from Mommy, Daddy, and Sissy!

 A FEW of her many gifts from us!

 She LOVED her bike!!

 Me and the birthday girl!

 Me and my other babygirl Annabelle!

 Annabelle

 Her first time on her bike:-)

A better picture. Don't mind the

laundry in the back haha!

Love my girls

My girls

Yesterday, one of my facebook friends, Nicole posted a blog that she follows. I looked at it and was instantly heartbroken. Another little life gone. 4 month old babygirl Maddy passed away the other day. I sat there and bawled my eyes out as I read the past few posts her wonderful mother had posted. My heart is broken for her. I proceeded to read her whole entire blog from the beginning yesterday. I finished in just a few hours. I let Peyton watch her Diego and I sat here and read. And cried. I could never even begin to imagine what her and her husband are going through, and will continue to go through the rest of their lives. It's so sad. But it's made me look at my girls and be more thankful than ever for them. I love them SO MUCH and could never imagine my life without them! (even as I sit here and listen to them argue and fight in their room lol) I am one lucky mamma to be their mommy!! I will never take them for granted because I know that one day, it could all be taken away. I love you Annabelle and Peyton with everything that I have!!!

Happy Love Day!

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Just wanted to share a little bit today. My hubby and I have been together for almost 3 years now (on March 10th) and have been married for almost 2 years (on April 28th). He's a wonderful man and I'm happy to be spending V-Day with him today! (even though he worked last night and is sleeping now haha). He surprised me today. He had told me that he had NO time to shop and he didn't get me anything. Then made me feel bad when I told him I got him something. Then he (after he let me sleep in today) woke me up with a card and a GORGEOUS necklace!! He's awesome!! I love you Chad David!!

Isn't it gorgeous? It's my birthstone too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cytTA8rbVYE

This link will take you to mine and Chad's song!

Well I hope everyone else out there has a fabulous day today!!! Remember to show everyone how much you love them EVERY day, not just today!



Been a while...

Well, it's kinda been a while since I posted. I believe the last one was about the baby who passed away. Well since then, life's been sorta crazy. We went to the funeral that Tuesday. I have to say, it was the hardest, most difficult funeral I have EVER been to! They had an open casket, and the moment I saw that, I lost it! I did not stop crying the whole entire service. They picked out a gorgeous casket. It was a really bright, shiny, red and was just beautiful. But it was the smallest casket I have ever seen in my life. No longer than 3 feet. It was awful. But I know he's in a better place. He is truly an angel in heaven!!

 This is the first thing that made me cry

 Alijah Trent Light

Sunrise November 26, 2010

Sunset January 13, 2010

He was only 49 days old

The front of the program for the service.

I'm sorry the pics are so crappy. I have a scanner/printer/copier in one but I have NO idea how to work the scanner/copier lol. I will learn one of these days!!! R.I.P Little Alijah!!! We love and miss you SO MUCH!

On a brighter note, my new nephew was born on January 20, 2010!! His name is Jeremiah Alexander. He weighed 7lbs, 6oz and was 19 3/4in long! He's SOOO beautiful!!

 One of the first pictures I got

 aww mommy and son!

 Jeremiah

 He's so tiny!

 Annabelle and her new cousin!

 I look like crap in this pic but me with my new

nephew!! I love him so much!

 She caught him smiling!

Even though she is young (16) she is an

amazing mommy!!

One of my FAVE pics of him!! He's

such a little angel!!!

So in the midst of all the sorrow we have felt these past few weeks, we have some joy too! He is an awesome baby and I LOVE cuddling him!! Chad and Peyton have not been able to meet him yet though. Chad was sick when he could go and he's been working the other days lol. So one day, he'll meet his little nephew! And Peyton has been sickly for a while now. Come to find out, she's had an ear infection. I'm not sure why I didn't think of that before the other day. Annabelle had SO many ear infections, that I should be used to the signs, but I guess not haha. Annabelle also has been sick and we found out she had an ear infection too but it was already healing. She was out of school 4 freakin days this week! I felt bad for her!! She has a nasal drip but I'm starting to think that she has a sinus infection. But her boogers are just now turning yellow/greenish. So we'll see how that goes. Also, Peyton went to daycare on Tuesday and was ok when I  dropped her off, but by the time I picked her up (maybe 7 hrs later) she had contracted pink eye from another kid there. The kids parents had sent their kid to daycare when her eyes were crusted shut in the morning before! Seriously?? UGH! So on top of everyone being sick, she had pink eye. But I think things are slowly getting better. As soon as we get our tax return (on the 4th!) I am stocking up on lysol and vitamins for all of us!

Ok, I think I have taken up enough of your time now. I'll write again soon!!!

Yes! I got it right! LOL!

Awards

WOW!! So I got 2 awards from my wonderful friend Ashley at http://lovelylittleadventure.blogspot.com/. OK, I'm not really sure how to link back to a blog. But her blog name is A Lovely Little Adventure. She is awesome!!! Thank you SO much Ashley!!! I mean 2 awards?! I never in a million years expected even one!!

So here they are! The first one is:

Rules:

1) Thank & Link back to the person who gave you the award

2) Answer the following 10 questions

3) Pass it along to 7 blogs you've recently discovered and enjoy

4) Leave your recipients a note, telling them about the award.

Questions

1. Why did you create this blog? Well, I started one a few months ago because my friend Ashley (above lol) told me how great it was. But I never kept up on it. Now, I'm doing it because I need somewhere to let out all the stuff I'm thinking because my hubby works 3rd shift and sometimes it's just hard for us to have a conversation when he's working or sleeping haha.

2. What kind of blogs do you follow? To be honest, they just have to be interesting to me. As of right now, I've gone to other peoples blogs and seen what they were following. I believe the ones I have so far are ones that Ashley has as well (haha I'm a stalker of Ash apparently!!)

3. Favorite make-up brand? Uhh I don't really have a fave!! I really want to try bare minerals though. Actually, right now, I just want NEW make-up! I haven't gotten any in about a year? Sucks being broke:-)

4. Favorite clothing brand? Ok, I hardly have ANY clothes that actually fit me anymore lol. (I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!) So I mostly wear t-shirts and jeans. Most of my nice things come from fashion bug. Although over the summer, thanks to my mommy and her gift card for me, I found this newer place called Avenue that has some pretty awesome things!!

5. Indispensable make-up item? Does chap stick count? LOL! I use it ALLL the time! But other than that, cover-up/foundation. (hey they go together ok?) I have a problem with breaking out a lot so I NEED that haha.

6. Favorite color? PURPLE! (can ya tell by my blog?! I LOVE purple!!!

7. Favorite perfume? Well I have one that I LOVE but don't have $75 to spend on it right now, but it has always been, hands down, my fave! True Star by Beyonce! It is AH-MAZING!

8. Favorite film? Ok, a little back round on me. I worked at video stores (2 places,all together) equaling about 6 1/2 years. So I can't just pick ONE! I love chick flicks, the Twilight series, action. horror, drama, real-life, comedy....I pretty much like anything other than foreign (but I even like SOME of those) haha!

9. What country would you like to visit and why? I have ALWAYS wanted to go to France!! I took french in high school and it's such a beautiful language and country!! But I also want to go to Italy, Spain, Australia-ok anywhere would be awesome haah!

10. Would you rather want to forget to put mascara on one eye or blush on one cheek? haha! Umm I think blush on one cheek! I can always pinch my cheek to make it look like I have blush on LOL!!



This is my 2nd award:

Now, I don't think my blog is stylish yet, but I'll take it haha!

Rules:
1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Award 10 recently discovered great bloggers.
4. Contact these bloggers and tell them about this award.

1. I am TERRIFIED to spiders! Even the tiny ones. I don't know why, I just am!!!

2. I can't drink out of anybody elses drinks (even my husbands lol) but I can share with Peyton (the baby). How weird is that? lol!

3. I have HORRIBLE self-esteem!

4. I'm a messy person. Not like slobby but not neat for sure! (I try but the kids mess everything up anyways haha)

5. I can take care of myself, and my whole household sick. I even used to go to work ALL the time sickly (unless I'm like throwing up)

6. I can have my blood drawn over and over, but when it comes to needles in my mouth? FORGET ABOUT IT! I have to take a xanax to relax for that!!

7. I love my family more than ANYTHING in the world and will do ANYTHING for them!! Period.And this includes my entire family and friends who are like family!!!!

Ok, so I have only been doing this for a weekish and only have 2 followers (one of which is Ashley lol) and am not following too many people yet. So I will give this award to the bloggers that I have actually sat down and read fully!!

1. http://www.daysfilledwithlove.blogspot.com/ ....this is Days Filled With Love

2. http://brymandamoury.blogspot.com/ ....This is The Forever Endeavor (you may have received this already! If so, sorry!!)

3. http://alittlepinkinaworldofcamo.blogspot.com/ ....this is A Little Pink in a World of Camo.

The other one I'd give it to, is the one who gave it to me haha! Congrats you guys! I just want you to know that I really enjoy reading your blogs and think you really deserve these awards:-) Ok, I'm going to try out this whole signature thing!!

 (it worked! yay!)

Loss

It has taken me a few days to write this. I have wanted to since about Thursday when everything happened. I went to bed on Wednesday night at around 9:30pm because I had class on Thursday and had to be up at 6am. Chad came to bed around midnight or so because he had to be up with Peyton at 6am with me. (usually he stays up all night due to working 3rd shift). His phone started ringing at about 3am and I rolled over and hit him and told him to get it. He answered and I didn't hear anything. Chad asked the person if they were still there and that's when I heard him. It was Chad's best friend A (I won't put his whole name on here) and he was bawling his eyes out and said that his baby had just died. Chad and I shot up in bed. Chad asked him what happened and I remember hearing every word SO clearly even though I was not on the phone. He said that they were sleeping together and he rolled over on him. We both started crying immediatly because we know what a wonderful father this guy is and we had NO IDEA what to say to that. Chad asked him where he was and if he wanted him to come to him. A said he was in South Bend at the hospital. So Chad couldn't really go. (of course if he said come now, he would have). So A got off the phone with Chad and we just sat there, crying in silence, frozen. It was really hard to go back to sleep after that. And when I finally did fall asleep, I had HORRIBLE dreams. We woke up at 6am and went through the motions of the day. Of course the day was HORRIBLE for me. I left for school and forgot to leave the carseat for Chad in case A needed him. I left my wallet at home, and didn't take Chad's debit card in case I needed anything. I got to school and realized that my gas tank was almost on E and I had NO money with me. (a friend brought me $20 though thank god!!) Then I went into my APHY class and failed the quiz. (I actually dropped this class because I just can NOT do an 8 week class in that class!) By the time I got home I was exhausted, mentally, and physically. Chad was still a wreck when I got home so that was another thing. Then he got another call from A. Apparently when he had called in the morning,, the dr's told them that if they took the breathing tube out, the baby would die. A lost it and called Chad. But when they took it out, he was still breathing on his own. But they had done tests and they showed that he was brain dead. They were still running tests when Chad got that 2nd call so we had hope that maybe things would be ok. But A sent a text to Chad a few hours later and he had passed then. Chad loves this guy like a brother and feels like he should be doing something for him but I mean, what can you do in a situation like this?!? We're not sure on arrangements still. I've been looking for an obituary but they have not posted one yet. I texted E (As fiance) to let her know I was here for her and stuff like that but I have not heard from her yet. I can't even imagine what they're going through. I have NO idea how I would react to something like that! I don't know what I can say to either of them. I mean you can't say it'll be ok, because they lost one of their children. I would just die if something like that would happen to one of my girls! I know this has rambled on, and on, but I just needed to get it out. So in closing, I will say R.I.P baby Elijah (he was only 6-8 weeks old btw). You were loved SO much by SO MANY people and we will miss you forever!!

Bri

help!

Does anyone know why I would be able to see everyone elses blog but ONE of my friends?! I'm so confused here! Help!!

Bri